Dec 22, 2007

Strange how we feel in holidays…

Each holiday I start to think that it is going to be special this year, I make a promises to myself, I will be happy, forget all about sad things in life and enjoy the holidays. But when holydays start, I find it same as the other days, with 2 differences, first is we don’t go to work (and this is the great thing about holidays) and the 2nd is u start to feel lonely and missing all the ppl u considered to be friends, lovers, and beloved ppl in your life. A usual thing to do in holidays is to set and think about your life, the meaning of it, and how far you got in it.

This Eid, I would describe it as different, not special, but different. My uncle came to visit us, he is my only uncle, and I admit that I love him. It has been almost 9 years since I saw him last time, and really I missed him.

The funny thing about my uncle is that he chose to stay away from civilization, to live in a village, while he can live in the city. To have a job that is made for uneducated person, while he has his degree. Up to now, I just can’t get what he is thinking of; I guess I’ll never understand his mindset.

Even though I was looking to meeting my uncle, but the feeling of loneliness still the overwhelming feeling in holidays…the only comforting thing is that I’m not the only one who has this feeling, many other do. Hope that next Eid feelings differ, wi kol 3am wi into bi kheer..

Dec 15, 2007

I love to live by the sea…



Yesterday, I came back from Aqaba, staying 3 days there. The last time I went there, I did not get the chance to see the sea, the weather was hot, we had a lot of work, and the company I was with did not help…so the only thing I could do is to watch the sea from a distance, and this was killing me.

This time was no difference, we arrived at the afternoon, the weather was very nice, but we had no time, and the people I’m with are more interested in work and ..Shopping…
The last day, I decided, I will not walk the way they want me to, true she is my manager, but still, I woke up early in the morning, went walking, went to the shore, drank my coffee there, and got the chance to ride the speed boat. This made me realize, I love the sea the most, I never wake up early in the morning to walk to do any thing, I hate waking up, but to watch the sea, I’m ready to do any thing…I believe that the view of water, just give u the peace and harmony that you wish to live with, it has been one of my dreams to live by the sea.. I wish that this dream will come true one day…

Sometimes I like the way I think and act, I never let any one control me, or manage me the way he or she wishes, even though I make them happy and satisfied, it is not about this situation only; I’m talking in general… I guess this is what they are talking about social cleverness.

This is the 1st time I don’t know how to sleep, I guess this is because I went to sleep so early, is there any one goes to sleep at 10?? I did…I should have taken something to read…

I wrote this 2 days ago, and I did not publish it in my blog, I got busy with something else, today I got a comment from maiosh, saying she misses me, or misses my writing. The truth she succeeded in drawing a smile on my face, I was so happy that by writing my diaries, I’m making new friends…this was not in my mind when I started to write in my blog. Again thanks maiosh for your sweet comment.