Happiness absolutely has no rules!!



Yesterday I went to one of my mom relatives’ wedding. The wedding was much below average. If I’m to evaluate according to my standards, it will be a complete failure.

As start, the hall …ummmm what to say…small, hot, the chairs were..yakkee…and the hostesses were so scary. The DJ was awful, I can do a very much better work than she did in choosing and playing songs. The bride’s gown was not that pretty, she was not wearing make up( and she is not a pretty at all), her hair was not that great, the groom’s suit was ugly, with his unexplainable tie!!

So what is the important thing here? Weddings differ, and I have gone to weddings that I did not like before, so why is that that important to talk about this wedding? It is the happiness that was showing at the faces of the married couple. They were like couple of birds, enjoying heaven.

They danced freely, having arms all around, with this big un-hidden smile, singing for each other. I have been into weddings much more expensive, more organized, beautiful gowns, suits, cars, girls and guys, a better DJ, and Diffidently a better service, but I missed happiness floating in the atmosphere. All the happiness in their eyes made me truly wonder, there are no rules for happiness, it is not money, beauty, education……nothing controls it, it is rule-less …

Another question popped-up into my head, are they going to maintain their love? Are they going to have this obvious affection for ever? I wish…I really wish to revive my faith in love, and social relationships…I do really wish them Good Luck.

I lied…L

I hate to lie, I can’t lie, but I lied…and guess what, I lied at my father!!..the most honest, ideal person I know. Some times, I disagree with dad, he is about 30 years older than me, which makes it a whole generation separating between us, not to mention, life has changed, it changes every day..and unless we try to adapt with it, we’ll be so exhausted…I just give up sometimes, trying to convince dad that life has changed, and that there is nothing wrong with the things we are doing being young people trying to enjoy life, and still not violating the rules we have been raised on…..he just does not listen.

I lie sometimes. I try to hide my face, I avoid eye contact as much as I can, I struggle to hide my childish smile that will un-cover my whole lie…and then- if I’m gone with it- I have to deal with the feeling of guilt…I hate that…I just wish I’d change and become a more better liar …I mean actor….

For you dad…I’m sorry…I wish I can say it to you directly…but I guess I can’t…even though it is a very …tiny…innocent lie….

Yes I’m single…so what??


Only two months and I’ll turn 27…each day, I got faced with this question: “you are single!! not married!! Not engaged!!”..and my answer is: yes…yes I’m single….

It is the habit of all people to interfere with our lives, and tell us what do, how to do it, and even when to do it…..that day I was enjoying my favorite sport…swimming…a sweet little girl had a very nice conservation with me (she is 11 years old by the way), she was telling me that she is the only daughter in her family..so I told her what a good luck she has…then she asked: “do u have a daughter?” I replayed: No, “then a boy?”, I also replied: No, I don’t have any…I’m single…and here another lady jumped into the conservation…. “Is she your daughter?” I was like….for God’s sake…she is 11 years, that means had to deliver her when I was 16 …

I know it is time to find my soul mate…I really wish I do…cause I really need him in many aspects of my life…but up to now I could not find any, and he has not found me yet too(I guess I’ll talk about this later)…..but what to do?!, it is never in our hands…it is all about destiny…the problem here, if I was a guy, it would be much easer to pretend that you don’t want to get married…but when u r a female…it is never allowed to declare that u don’t want to get married…God forbidden.. you do…so questions will be all around..: “you have someone in your life?”, or even worse…: “what have you done so you don’t want to get married?” ….they are never convinced that u just did not find the person of your dreams…

Last thing to mention, is that I can not stop myself from laughing when they start the compliments: “ guys must be blind so that they can see u” ( don’t get the idea that I have this irresistible charm, I’m less than average) , or when you r at the wedding of someone.. and you get this prayer: “may God send u the sweetest guy” , in our words: “Allah eb3atlek ebn el 7alal, or even worse…Allah ya3teeke…J

1st time

It has been a week or more since I started to read blogs…I liked the idea…it gives u the freedom to talk and express ur feelings and ideas…even if they r so crazy or even don’t make any kind of sense…right now I don’t have any specific idea to talk about..a very strange thing is that we u start to read all the ideas just vanish from ur head…I guess in the coming days I’ll be writing my ideas once they pop-up in my head…